This is just something I struggle with. I Use to go to church and pray…but then I know in my heart that this isn’t my choice because I wish i was attracted to girls so I could have a family. Is God calling me to be celibate and alone as a test of character? How about the attraction- should I just try to advert the thoughts as much as possible? isn’t feeling this a sin on itself? I just don’t understand why God would give up on me because I know myself to be a good kind person.
You are WAY overthinking this, and you must think you are addressing some people who have been living in a cave – get over it already, and read this:
For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who hold the truth in unrighteousness; Because that which may be known of God is manifest in them; for God hath shewed it unto them. For the invisible things of him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even his eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse: Because that, when they knew God, they glorified him not as God, neither were thankful; but became vain in their imaginations, and their foolish heart was darkened. Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools, And changed the glory of the uncorruptible God into an image made like to corruptible man, and to birds, and fourfooted beasts, and creeping things. Wherefore God also gave them up to uncleanness through the lusts of their own hearts, to dishonour their own bodies between themselves: Who changed the truth of God into a lie, and worshipped and served the creature more than the Creator, who is blessed for ever. Amen. For this cause God gave them up unto vile affections: for even their women did change the natural use into that which is against nature: And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompence of their error which was meet. (Romans 1:18-27 KJV)
If you have a problem with these facts, you are not going to get ANY sympathy or coddling. To quote a good friend: IT’S TIME TO GET SERIOUS!
Jesus Christ said, “And if thy right hand offend thee, cut it off, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish, and not that thy whole bodyshould be cast into hell.”(Matthew 5:30 KJV)
Is that clear enough?